Writer. Bridge Builder. Reluctant Apprentice to Paradox.
Life is beautiful and life is heartbreaking. Even if you eat your broccoli, use sunscreen and wear your seatbelt. And no matter how fervently you plan or pray, things often do not go as we might hope. Four years ago, as a mother to an infant and a toddler, I (a non-smoking triathlete with zero risk factors) had a heart attack and nearly died. This experience has forced me to renegotiate my relationship with my body and undermined my ability to take certain things for granted. It also required me to grapple with the platitudes and quick explanations that people often offer when confronted with pain or difficulty.
I have practiced standing in places of relentless uncertainty for a long time, places where multiple things are true at the same time. I refuse to accept simple explanations for complicated situations. But I also refuse to give in to cynicism and despair. My hope and my joy are hard-won and stubborn. This is the perspective that I bring to my writing, coaching and facilitation work. Not pretending the difficulty isn’t there, but also not letting it have the last word. Embracing both grief and joy. Seeking possibilities. Not necessarily resolving ambiguity or finding consensus but faithfully, courageously finding the next step forward.
WRITING FEEDBACK
Writing can often feel like hard work. Having a companion to listen intently and provide clear, honest feedback can help you hear your voice in new ways and clarify what you are trying to say. I love to support and encourage other writers.
gratitude as survival
REFLECTION: This fall, I have spent every Thursday in the Minnesota Correctional Facility in Stillwater. Upon arrival, five of us (chaplains and chaplains-in-training) walk through multiple metal gates that offer an ominous clanging echo each time they close behind us.
Publication: riverteeth 2/6/23
6:30 Tuesday morning. My four-year-old daughter sits next to me, scooping spoonfuls of cereal toward her mouth as milks drips onto her bare chest. Emmalani prefers life without clothing. Today she sports purple butterfly underwear. Nothing else. Her brown bangs fall over her eyes, finally growing…